Saturday, July 29, 2006; 12:13 AM;
i cant believe myself.
how can i tolerate this sch ?
how can i tolerate this sch ?
; ran
Monday, July 24, 2006; 12:10 AM;
phew its past midnight now.
just now 2k ppl wenta town to do cip (: at first was quite bad la. e girls were angry cause some guys &i were late. ): sorry girls i had church before that &felt that it was bad to leave before e pastor stopped talking.
this time i wasnt as enthusiastic as e last time la. partly because e ppl i met today were quite sian la. there werent oh-i-can-give-you-$5-but-i-dont-want-e-free-stuff eurasians, neither were there nice goofs arnd. hmm i sound mean. xD after cip we ate at ljs before everyone set off for home. then zhiyong ruijie dexter &i wenta causeway point. i thought it'd be sian to go home since i thought it was quite early. haha i went uninvited ;D zhiyong is a sweet person haha.
there's so much wooing going arnd xD i sometimes get jealous when i see e guys trying to please e girls they like. (X i never had that /:
anyway i hope that every outing we have, no matter is it cip or class outing, we'll bond more each time. if sth bad crops up, then lets all compromise &forgive. afterall we want fond memories to stay with us (:
i need to pray. i need to live my life as a christian, ¬ by my own will.
just now 2k ppl wenta town to do cip (: at first was quite bad la. e girls were angry cause some guys &i were late. ): sorry girls i had church before that &felt that it was bad to leave before e pastor stopped talking.
this time i wasnt as enthusiastic as e last time la. partly because e ppl i met today were quite sian la. there werent oh-i-can-give-you-$5-but-i-dont-want-e-free-stuff eurasians, neither were there nice goofs arnd. hmm i sound mean. xD after cip we ate at ljs before everyone set off for home. then zhiyong ruijie dexter &i wenta causeway point. i thought it'd be sian to go home since i thought it was quite early. haha i went uninvited ;D zhiyong is a sweet person haha.
there's so much wooing going arnd xD i sometimes get jealous when i see e guys trying to please e girls they like. (X i never had that /:
anyway i hope that every outing we have, no matter is it cip or class outing, we'll bond more each time. if sth bad crops up, then lets all compromise &forgive. afterall we want fond memories to stay with us (:
i need to pray. i need to live my life as a christian, ¬ by my own will.
; ran
Saturday, July 22, 2006; 6:37 PM;
wahpiang ! its been bloody long since i last blogged lo. ): ): rah.
anyway zaviar reminded me that TODAY'S E LAST DAY OF GREAT SG SALE ! ahhhhh. i feel like a failure cause i havent been shopping. grr.
later most of 2k are going to do e teddies cip again. so afterwards i can go town teehee.
life's been great for me these few days. class, cca &cousins (: although sometimes i'd be caught in dilemmas of whether to spend time with class or cca, other times i'd tell myself im supposed to spend time with which party today &things like that. at times ppl make me feel bad about not being with them thus i must apologise. ): but i also hope you ppl can undstd that i wanna spend time with both groups of friends &e day's not long enough.
I LOVE LIFE ANYHOW (:
ohya i have a funny pic of swee ;D i promise i'll post it in my next entry hahaha. its damn cute la. like a retard ;D btw its good to study i at e self study area on e 2nd floor of sch cause you can sort of concentrate &do hw there (: at least i managed to la haha.
anyway zaviar reminded me that TODAY'S E LAST DAY OF GREAT SG SALE ! ahhhhh. i feel like a failure cause i havent been shopping. grr.
later most of 2k are going to do e teddies cip again. so afterwards i can go town teehee.
life's been great for me these few days. class, cca &cousins (: although sometimes i'd be caught in dilemmas of whether to spend time with class or cca, other times i'd tell myself im supposed to spend time with which party today &things like that. at times ppl make me feel bad about not being with them thus i must apologise. ): but i also hope you ppl can undstd that i wanna spend time with both groups of friends &e day's not long enough.
I LOVE LIFE ANYHOW (:
ohya i have a funny pic of swee ;D i promise i'll post it in my next entry hahaha. its damn cute la. like a retard ;D btw its good to study i at e self study area on e 2nd floor of sch cause you can sort of concentrate &do hw there (: at least i managed to la haha.
; ran
Sunday, July 16, 2006; 10:35 AM;
see that weird term up there under JASMINE ? its e 7th line. i belong to it &i cherish them.
im so sorry my girls. i just wenta claire's blog &i want to tell you girls that i havent forgotten you. its just that im selfish. i keep sticking to my classmates &i havent been thinking. &i know if this carries on we're gonna drift apart. i dont want that to happen. so be assured my dearests.
this is a big challenge im taking up. i know i wont lose to this shit. im gonna spend time with both my classmates &my awesomes. i wont let any of them down again. i will not.
im so sorry my girls. i just wenta claire's blog &i want to tell you girls that i havent forgotten you. its just that im selfish. i keep sticking to my classmates &i havent been thinking. &i know if this carries on we're gonna drift apart. i dont want that to happen. so be assured my dearests.
this is a big challenge im taking up. i know i wont lose to this shit. im gonna spend time with both my classmates &my awesomes. i wont let any of them down again. i will not.
; ran
God always puts me in dilemmas. which is bad.
i need both groups of friends. thus i must make time for both sides. which is tough.
ARGH. wtvr la.
anyway i havent been online &blogging for like 3days ? i dont know la. i feel so lifeless LOL.
but then again, i aint lifeless. i go out with my friends. or rather, go home with them &i feel happy when i do that (: i therefore conclude that e com is not everything ! hahaha cause i dont need it la. as in not as much as last time yay.
hmm ytd was RVH's 50th Speech Day &they finally have a hall big enough to accomodate sec2s, 3s, &4s. i like band's Let's Swing e most cause its just so jazzy ;D also because i've watched e movie (: dance was good as well. but i feel that last year's ppl danced better. x: oh chorale was nice hoho. i like Candle on e Water (X i'll be your candle on e water. my love for you will always burn. CO didnt surprise me too much la, cause i expected a good performance from them (: yay so ytd was goooood.
oh NCC guys did a good job being backstage crews xDxD
ps : calling all wealthy arses. jasmine needs e PONY totebag she saw when she wenta queensway shopping centre last week. its black, red, white &rather big. a cheaper alternative wld be e PUMA handbag in e same shop. it has different shades of pink on it. white too ;D;D pleaseplease hohoho.
i need both groups of friends. thus i must make time for both sides. which is tough.
ARGH. wtvr la.
anyway i havent been online &blogging for like 3days ? i dont know la. i feel so lifeless LOL.
but then again, i aint lifeless. i go out with my friends. or rather, go home with them &i feel happy when i do that (: i therefore conclude that e com is not everything ! hahaha cause i dont need it la. as in not as much as last time yay.
hmm ytd was RVH's 50th Speech Day &they finally have a hall big enough to accomodate sec2s, 3s, &4s. i like band's Let's Swing e most cause its just so jazzy ;D also because i've watched e movie (: dance was good as well. but i feel that last year's ppl danced better. x: oh chorale was nice hoho. i like Candle on e Water (X i'll be your candle on e water. my love for you will always burn. CO didnt surprise me too much la, cause i expected a good performance from them (: yay so ytd was goooood.
oh NCC guys did a good job being backstage crews xDxD
ps : calling all wealthy arses. jasmine needs e PONY totebag she saw when she wenta queensway shopping centre last week. its black, red, white &rather big. a cheaper alternative wld be e PUMA handbag in e same shop. it has different shades of pink on it. white too ;D;D pleaseplease hohoho.
; ran
Thursday, July 13, 2006; 9:30 PM;
haha i feel damn fat ;D
i ate 3 kitkat milk chunkies in 2 days. /: thats quite kuazhang leh haha.
oh &congrats to our Cdiv 4 x 400m girls ! (: (: yay semi !
teehee today was high cause spent e noon &evening with dengyin &ruijie. lol damn fun ;D
btw i needa start trng soon before i turn really obese ok. but i li bu chong xin, im always damn lazy la. aiyo.
hmm anyway today everyone was happy &i managed to deesiao everyone whom i like to deesiao (X so fun ! ppl like rui &swee cant escape from my clutches. DEESIAO ! hahaha.
i know dengyin wants me to be her boyfriend. haha cause im too sweet. teehee. plus ruijie is officially dengyin &my JIEMEI ! hahahahaha i dont care. rui is our jiemei. oh now i have 2 official jiemeis (: DEEDEE &RUI !
;D
i ate 3 kitkat milk chunkies in 2 days. /: thats quite kuazhang leh haha.
oh &congrats to our Cdiv 4 x 400m girls ! (: (: yay semi !
teehee today was high cause spent e noon &evening with dengyin &ruijie. lol damn fun ;D
btw i needa start trng soon before i turn really obese ok. but i li bu chong xin, im always damn lazy la. aiyo.
hmm anyway today everyone was happy &i managed to deesiao everyone whom i like to deesiao (X so fun ! ppl like rui &swee cant escape from my clutches. DEESIAO ! hahaha.
i know dengyin wants me to be her boyfriend. haha cause im too sweet. teehee. plus ruijie is officially dengyin &my JIEMEI ! hahahahaha i dont care. rui is our jiemei. oh now i have 2 official jiemeis (: DEEDEE &RUI !
;D
; ran
Tuesday, July 11, 2006; 10:20 PM;
haha just look at zaviar's msn nick ;D
but of course. I AM SO SMART (: italy won. teehee. oh he was supposed to castrate himself, but i spared him that xD
&btw im quite sad for zidane actually. e scene when he walked outta e stadium with e World Cup behind him was a classic man. yes he was one violent guy, but i believe his victim must have said sth really offensive to make him turn into a dinosaur which headbutts. he was so aggressive. what added to my disappointment was that that was his last official match alr, &it had to end like that. ): he was such a good player.
hmm anyway A, B, C, D, E, F &myself are friends again (: i love my Abba Father ! yay i know we'll be able to pass that test. (:
i dont have much to blog about.
umm, i ate alot for dinner. PHEW.
but of course. I AM SO SMART (: italy won. teehee. oh he was supposed to castrate himself, but i spared him that xD
&btw im quite sad for zidane actually. e scene when he walked outta e stadium with e World Cup behind him was a classic man. yes he was one violent guy, but i believe his victim must have said sth really offensive to make him turn into a dinosaur which headbutts. he was so aggressive. what added to my disappointment was that that was his last official match alr, &it had to end like that. ): he was such a good player.
hmm anyway A, B, C, D, E, F &myself are friends again (: i love my Abba Father ! yay i know we'll be able to pass that test. (:
i dont have much to blog about.
umm, i ate alot for dinner. PHEW.
; ran
Sunday, July 09, 2006; 5:40 AM;
hey there (:
things are becoming better now &i thank God. i believe tmr things will turn out to be even better because i have faith in Him, e almighty healer. He'll definitely help us outta this situation, ppl. hallelujah.
anyway today im happyhappy (: cause i got my sportsbraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! xD rejoice ! teehee.
oh then i saw this PONY tote. ohmygosh okay, i was damn mesmerised ;D rocks like crazy. yay.
but i didnt buy it la, i mean, its like 50bucks. im damn broke now. boo. i saw many other hot bags too ! ohman la, no money damn sad. haha.
ok i hope tmr'll be a happy day.
GO ITALY ! ;D;D
things are becoming better now &i thank God. i believe tmr things will turn out to be even better because i have faith in Him, e almighty healer. He'll definitely help us outta this situation, ppl. hallelujah.
anyway today im happyhappy (: cause i got my sportsbraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! xD rejoice ! teehee.
oh then i saw this PONY tote. ohmygosh okay, i was damn mesmerised ;D rocks like crazy. yay.
but i didnt buy it la, i mean, its like 50bucks. im damn broke now. boo. i saw many other hot bags too ! ohman la, no money damn sad. haha.
ok i hope tmr'll be a happy day.
GO ITALY ! ;D;D
A B C D E F : I LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY ;D
; ran
Saturday, July 08, 2006; 9:40 PM;
sigh.
i believe this is a test by God. if we pull through, we'll be stronger &more united. if we do not, then we'll remain like this until we leave each other. &i predict we'll regret not treasuring time.
let us put everything behind us &continue our walk in e journey of friendship ; comforting each other when one is down, standing as one when others try to bring us apart.
to do all these, we'll have to forgive first. im ready for it, to apologise as well as to accept apologies. only then can we become better &closer friends.
i've decided, i certainly do not want to be e one who's breaking us apart. &hereby i shall say sorry to whom i've offended, be it A, B, C, D, E or F.
LET US PASS THIS TEST &WALK ON HAND IN HAND.
edit : i surrender to this. i cannot stand this anymore. i need you guys back. please. my closest ppl, come back &stick tgt like glue.
i believe this is a test by God. if we pull through, we'll be stronger &more united. if we do not, then we'll remain like this until we leave each other. &i predict we'll regret not treasuring time.
let us put everything behind us &continue our walk in e journey of friendship ; comforting each other when one is down, standing as one when others try to bring us apart.
to do all these, we'll have to forgive first. im ready for it, to apologise as well as to accept apologies. only then can we become better &closer friends.
i've decided, i certainly do not want to be e one who's breaking us apart. &hereby i shall say sorry to whom i've offended, be it A, B, C, D, E or F.
LET US PASS THIS TEST &WALK ON HAND IN HAND.
edit : i surrender to this. i cannot stand this anymore. i need you guys back. please. my closest ppl, come back &stick tgt like glue.
; ran
im back after a few days of not being online on msn msger. hmm ytd was as bad as crap. ):
had my 3000 race. it was bad, very bad, because i didnt improve. i dont know what happened. it was like shit. i really dont like it. why didnt i improve ? i ought to because i've trained hard. it was so disappointing for me. &a lil hard for me to accept that i really havent improved. why. that big digital timer showed my failure. moreover, i was wearing spikes. wth man, i seriously suck. ): but nvm.
10
Tan Yi Xin
431
RVH
13:58.80
as if that isnt sucky enough, breaking up of a clique had to happen. i mean, i know it was my fault la, to disclose it to A. it was also my fault to say yes when she asked me to be honest with A. now all this damned shit is happening. i mean, wtf man.
i feel i do have a say in this situation, although im not e person who knows all sides of e story best.
i dont know why A is ignoring me. or is she not ? i dont know. she didnt talk to me e entire day ytd. &B, A's good friend, thinks she knows e situation very well. however in actual fact she's e last person i wanna see commenting on wtvr thats happening. C is upset about all thats happening, just like everyone involved. &from my presence in sch ytd, A &C are obviuosly not on very good terms. i dont know if A is blaming C or what, but i guess its because of D. D is distressed &getting so vulgar. i do not -repeat - do not wish to see him back to square one, back to his old grudgeful self. he has been a great friend since he changed for e better, &i appreciate his efforts for doing that, whether if it was for C or not.
meanwhile, A feels cheated because C, D, E, F &myself kept e truth from her, for fear she'd become depressed. E is e one whom i respect &admire. he is trying to put e broken pieces of everyone back in place, so we'll become forgiving. but A &B are refusing his help. B swore at E, which made me feel angered. like i said, e most ignorant person in this situation is B while e most suitable person to solve e problem is E. now you see e irony ? F is D's good friend, &i suppose he doesnt know what to do as well. he says time will heal all but hey, we have no time left to be tgt, we're gonna get separated damn soon. &now all this crap is happening. all this unsound shit that is making everyone unhappy. all A, B, C, D, E, F, myself &e ppl arnd us.
i myself do not know what i can/shld do now to help make things better. but while im thinking of a way to help, i shall keep my oral cavity shut to prevent myself from earning more enemies than ever. i alr have A, someone i treat as a very good friend, ignoring me for unknown reasons. &i dont need more.
edit : for goodness' sake, any amount of choc wont cheer me up.
had my 3000 race. it was bad, very bad, because i didnt improve. i dont know what happened. it was like shit. i really dont like it. why didnt i improve ? i ought to because i've trained hard. it was so disappointing for me. &a lil hard for me to accept that i really havent improved. why. that big digital timer showed my failure. moreover, i was wearing spikes. wth man, i seriously suck. ): but nvm.
10
Tan Yi Xin
431
RVH
13:58.80
as if that isnt sucky enough, breaking up of a clique had to happen. i mean, i know it was my fault la, to disclose it to A. it was also my fault to say yes when she asked me to be honest with A. now all this damned shit is happening. i mean, wtf man.
i feel i do have a say in this situation, although im not e person who knows all sides of e story best.
i dont know why A is ignoring me. or is she not ? i dont know. she didnt talk to me e entire day ytd. &B, A's good friend, thinks she knows e situation very well. however in actual fact she's e last person i wanna see commenting on wtvr thats happening. C is upset about all thats happening, just like everyone involved. &from my presence in sch ytd, A &C are obviuosly not on very good terms. i dont know if A is blaming C or what, but i guess its because of D. D is distressed &getting so vulgar. i do not -repeat - do not wish to see him back to square one, back to his old grudgeful self. he has been a great friend since he changed for e better, &i appreciate his efforts for doing that, whether if it was for C or not.
meanwhile, A feels cheated because C, D, E, F &myself kept e truth from her, for fear she'd become depressed. E is e one whom i respect &admire. he is trying to put e broken pieces of everyone back in place, so we'll become forgiving. but A &B are refusing his help. B swore at E, which made me feel angered. like i said, e most ignorant person in this situation is B while e most suitable person to solve e problem is E. now you see e irony ? F is D's good friend, &i suppose he doesnt know what to do as well. he says time will heal all but hey, we have no time left to be tgt, we're gonna get separated damn soon. &now all this crap is happening. all this unsound shit that is making everyone unhappy. all A, B, C, D, E, F, myself &e ppl arnd us.
i myself do not know what i can/shld do now to help make things better. but while im thinking of a way to help, i shall keep my oral cavity shut to prevent myself from earning more enemies than ever. i alr have A, someone i treat as a very good friend, ignoring me for unknown reasons. &i dont need more.
edit : for goodness' sake, any amount of choc wont cheer me up.
; ran
Tuesday, July 04, 2006; 8:50 PM;
im gonna eat my kitkat soon. &im multitasking ! ;D on e phone.
oh btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIJIE (:
umm 27 more days to someone's bday ! (: i've got a surprise for that person teehee.
hmm i love 2k &carrots (:
hey carrots, nationals are here so lets work hard okay. im actually extremely un-positive about this la, but i still wanna encourage you guys ;D jiayou &give it your best !
carrots all e way !!! (:
oh btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIJIE (:
umm 27 more days to someone's bday ! (: i've got a surprise for that person teehee.
hmm i love 2k &carrots (:
hey carrots, nationals are here so lets work hard okay. im actually extremely un-positive about this la, but i still wanna encourage you guys ;D jiayou &give it your best !
carrots all e way !!! (:
; ran
Saturday, July 01, 2006; 7:38 PM;
yay ytd was SYF ! ;D so fun hahaha.
e display bands were remarkably good at their stunts (:
after everything ended, e keesiaos went to cityhall to have dinner &chilled out a lil. hmm i like ytd (:
random pics ! ;D
runfeng says this shld be deatured in 'shutter' e horro movie.
yay so honoured (:
JAZZ + 10 } hahahaha
e one being tortured is sweecheng ;D
wilfred &dengyin were bitches because they bought icecream to tempt all of us ;D rah. [but that girl's aixin, not dengyin]
whats that below its nose ? (X
byebye !
e display bands were remarkably good at their stunts (:
after everything ended, e keesiaos went to cityhall to have dinner &chilled out a lil. hmm i like ytd (:
random pics ! ;D
runfeng says this shld be deatured in 'shutter' e horro movie.
yay so honoured (:
JAZZ + 10 } hahahaha
e one being tortured is sweecheng ;D
wilfred &dengyin were bitches because they bought icecream to tempt all of us ;D rah. [but that girl's aixin, not dengyin]
whats that below its nose ? (X
byebye !
; ran